US / U-S
We forgot that our hearts didn’t belong to each other
One of us
One of us had left a heart with their name on it
One of us
One of us had promised to have steady hands to another, to never drop their heart
To never drop the ball
To be consistent
To never allow space and absence to choke what was new and hopeful
One of us
One of us was here but not here
There
One of us was trying to be here and there and we could both see that omnipresence was a gift God had denied us
We tried
We stood on the edge of what is expected by God and what our flesh wanted
We played with the boundaries whilst still being moralistic about every moment we spent in our space
Our space
Our space, where absence wasn’t a problem
We were here and also there
One of us was available and the other was teetering at the edge of our boundary
Uncertain of what it meant to be in two places at once
The great thing is that time will always humble you
Time will remind you that you can never hold it
You can not somehow cage it and allow your heart to hold on to “timeless” moments
It ticks and ticks and exhausts your moments
They become memories and one of us
One of us
One of us did not defy time
One of us created space and absence between us
One of us did not defy time
One of us went back to the heart with their name on it and closed the space and absence with that heart
Went on like their heart had not once wished time would stop with us
One of us created space and absence between u-s
Both of us knew that our hearts never belonged there
One of us wondered if God could be so cruel
If loving
Could God bring your heart close to the edge of falling and watch as you fought to keep your balance?
The heart is deceitful above all things
And desperately wicked
Who can know it?
These hearts of ours, these hearts of ours will not be the reason, reason escapes us.
One.
